Do you think you might really be [depressed] about something? I know that feeling of annui, and it came to me when I was your age and hung on for years. I was an "ottist" so nobody knew there might be something wrong that could be fixed.

Talk to your folks about all this, as soon and as plainly as you can. They may can help, and/or the act of defying your torpor might actually break you out of it.

I'm sorry things aren't good, I want you to feel excited, and focused to get something and move on to other, um, somethings...