Well if I am it's the same [no]thing I've been depressed about since about 8th grade, just manifesting more in apathy rather than paranoid loneliness and that attention-seeking cutting phase. (Never actually got any attention for it...) The idea that that might be it has crossed my mind, but I've been able to function thus far? Nothing's changed. Overall I'm more happy, so what the heck is this? I don't know.

I don't want to tell them because I feel like I should be able to pull out of this on my own. All it'll take is harder work this semester and some sort of explanation in my meeting with the department.